Surfing with a Purpose

These thoughts were first kicked off by something Briana said.

I was in my car on my way home a couple of nights ago and I just began thinking about identity. Nobody actually knows all of us, and nobody ever will. Everything they think they know about us is actually not the complete reflection, but only a projection of a part of who our actual persona is. For example, I may be a caring, thoughtful person to one person, and to another I may be an oversensitive, short tempered girl, however these two projections originated from the same person. Why is this? Because there is no way that anyone will ever actually catch the whole person we are. Even your closest friend, your mother, or even your spouse will never catch this reflection. I continued thinking about this and then realized how much I actually don't even know myself, and that everything I thought I knew about myself is actually only a projection of what I'm feeling at the time. Our self esteem is constantly changing and shifting, and is pretty much based on our emotion. It's based on a projection of ourselves; the image we give off to ourselves. We may have a great day, and stick to every discipline we have put into place and we feel we aren't too shabby! Yet we can have a bad day, where our self discipline seems to crumble to the ground and we give ourselves the impression that we are the scum of the earth. This is not the way God wants us to live! Just to think, we don't even know who we are! We can't even trust in ourselves to know who we are, how we work, what we are and where exactly we are going! The only reflection there is and will ever be of us exists in Christ. We can search inside ourselves all we want, for the rest of our lives. We can ask people what they think of us in searching and trying to find what our identity is, but the only stable, unchanging identity is found in Christ, and THAT is the reflection of who we are. It is the complete identity! We are made in his image! Think about what that means!

It's a daily battle, but we really need to learn to stop basing who we are, and our abilities on what we think of ourselves, and the opinions of other people. We have to learn to put our trust in what God says about us in his Word, and how HE actually sees us. Finding our identity in Christ first is imperitive if we are going to live our lives ministering to others people.

Be blessed xx

Kate